And what goes into this bag....?

I had an OB appointment today, my first internal. I was completely freaked about the internal exam because I made the mistake of googling it. It wasn't so bad. I'd much rather have an internal exam than a pelvic ultrasound or another IUI (I cringe just thinking about the IUI).

I will be 36 weeks this Friday. I am 1.5 cm dilated and 80% effaced. I really have no idea what that means, but I guess for a first pregnancy/labor the 80% effaced is important. So I was told to have my bags packed. This woman even said to me "I'd be surprised if you make it past 36 weeks...". I'm thinking, just because she said this, it is the ultimate jinx. Now I'm doomed to sit in anticipation for the next four weeks.

Cross your fingers and hope he decides to come out soon. My nightmare is a 42 week induction.